Wednesday, October 18, 2006

my hands are very cold

Okay, so, I've been semi-inspired to blog again. Don't get your hopes up that I'll keep it up, because..well... I forget.

I'm not what someone would call a "religious" person. I believe in God. I believe in Jesus. I believe that Jesus is the son of God and that he was born of a virgin to die for our sins so that we may enjoy eternal life. But religion sometimes boggles my mind. It startles me....no, it downright scares me how many "religions" promote being judgemental or derogatory to someone who doesn't believe exactly as they do. No wonder people have such a hard time believing the basic principles of Christianity... look at some of the nutballs that represent it! I'm, of course, not talking about all Christian religions, nor am I talking about all Christian people. But we all know about the few bad apples and what they make the rest of the bunch look like.

I have what I feel to be a very private relationship with God. I talk to Him, He works in my life in extremely mysterious ways, and I don't pretend to understand everything that happens. I hear so many people spouting off at the mouth, reciting scripture by heart, knowing all the stories in the bible and the characters in the stories by name..... but do they have a relationship with God? Have they made their faith a personal thing, or have they learned the bible because they felt obligated? Faith is not always the easiest thing to keep. When you grow up in the bible belt, and specifically a small town in the bible belt, you're just raised to believe a certain way. You don't question it, you just live it. Like a good little Christian, you are taught that God dispises sins and, I'm sorry to say it,you are taught intolerance for people who live their lives in sin.

But there's a point, just like any subject in the world, where you are book smart about the subject, and then you are actually passionate about the subject. You have to go beyond the Book, beyond all of your teachers, and fall in love with Him in your own way. You have to go beyond what you have heard is right and wrong, and find love and tolerance...yes, even for people who don't believe like you do. After all, Christian means "Christ-like", right? I doubt He hated anyone, much less shunned them or dispised them just for living their lives in a manner that other people don't find to be correct.

Nobody wants to be approached in a negative way and told that they're not living their lives right. That's what bugs me about ANY religion that goes door to door to tell you that you need to be saved. If it's not about YOU and GOD.... it doesn't matter if you've been dipped in God's personal bathwater. It means nothing until it is PERSONAL.

I guess there are several things that brought this thought process that is highly unorganized about in my head. One thing was watching the 700 club last night. I'm not a regular viewer of the show because shows like that do nothing but piss me off....which is exactly what it did last night. That one guy with the funny ears was spouting off about people who live together before marriage, and how the United States DISCOURAGES marriage by their tax laws. Is he ever happy? Is there ever a time when he's not pointing his elderly finger at someone doing something wrong? Yeah, I really see the Christ in that. Not.

Also, I'm basing this on two separate posts that two separate friends on Myspace made. One was completely trashing the Mormon religion, and the other was completely trashing homosexuality. In MY mind, I want to just say... If you're not Mormon or homosexual, don't worry about what they're doing or believing...just live your life the way Christ did..... DO NOT go preaching to people who don't want to hear it. That's the worst thing anybody could do. They turn more people off that way than the substance behind what they're preaching. Just make your life an example. People will follow a good example a lot faster than they'll follow someone screaming YOU'RE WRONG!! I'M RIGHT!!! Jesus didn't preach to people who didn't want to hear it...he preached to people who DID, and the people who DIDN'T want to hear it often started listening to Him when they noticed his peace and tranquility...his kindness and goodness.

And finally... as I said before, my relationship with God is a very personal relationship. And I have found in my faith-hunting that I have to do work for God to do work. If that weren't true, then my husband would have fallen in my lap one day, there would never be any struggle for anything that you need or want, and everybody would be content and happy. Anybody who says to be patient while waiting for something that God is sending you is probably not practicing what they preach. It reminds me of the old joke that I'm sure we've all heard....the one where there was a man caught in a flood, and another man in a boat comes by to save him, but the man says "no, I'm waiting for God to save me." So a helicopter comes to get him off of his roof, but he says again that he's waiting for God to save him. To make a long story short, several things came along to save him and he kept refusing them and saying that God was going to save him. So he drowns in the flood and gets to heaven, and asks God why He didn't save him... and God says "well, I sent you a boat, and a helicopter, etc..."

Have a good day.