It's amazing how much he's changed in the past couple of weeks! He is now 8 weeks, 2 days old... he weighs 12 lbs 14 oz and is 24 inches long! He smiles all the time now. He had colic pretty badly from about 2 weeks until about 6-7 weeks... now he has it for about 30 minutes to an hour an evening and that's it! He's pretty happy other than that short time. He has gotten into batting at his toys and splashing his feet in the bath! He definitely recognizes his mommy... when other people hold him, he already starts looking around for me! And if he can see me, he fixates on me for a while, then fusses til they hand him back to me. (Spoiled much?) His doctor said that's uncommon in infants his age, and that it shows up usually at about 9 months... so I have an advanced momma's boy! I'm not complaining though.. I'm enjoying every second of being the center of his universe before he gets big enough to get interested in boy stuff and becomes a daddy's boy. By the way, he LOVES his babysitter, and she loves him! It has really helped to put my mind at ease.
It's time for me to go on some sort of diet. The tummy was something to be proud of just a couple of months ago, but no longer.
A little over a year ago, I wrote about a certain individual who seemed to always be trying to hurt me with their words and actions. That was around the time of my miscarriage of my first baby. Guess what? They're pretty much still at it. And there's no way to make it stop because it's so unpredictable! If you know me, you know that I am a "settle the waters" type of person. If there's conflict, I want it resolved so things can get back to normal, and I'm notorious for "forgetting" the bad things people do (although I never do forget, but I can pretend to so that things will feel comfortable for everybody). Every time I'm around this person it's a different thing... one time we'll be just fine with each other, happy and laughing... the next time it's the total opposite... they're saying mean things and criticizing not only me, but my parenting and things beyond my control at this point, like my flabby tummy. (I guess I'm supposed to be magic and turn into some washboard abs type person within 8 weeks of having a c-section and losing 36 lbs.) Why would someone even point out someone else's shortcomings?? My mother taught us that it is rude and disrespectful to point things out that would hurt someone else's feelings.
I've resolved to stop going anywhere near this person at all... which will cause nothing but drama in itself, but it'll keep me from having to deal with them. Unless you have a better suggestion out there....
I'm just tired of it. I want to be happy in every aspect of my life. Right now, I'm only happy in one... the fact that I'm a mommy to a beautiful little boy.